There are times when I think you’ve forgiven S. more completely than any of us have. Waker once said something very interesting to me on that subject – in fact, I’m merely parroting what he said to me. He said you were the only one who was bitter about S.’s suicide and the only one who really forgave him for it. The rest of us, he said, were outwardly unbitter and inwardly unforgiving. That may be truer than true.