For some reason, I’ve been thinking more and more about my mother and the way her life failed her, humiliated her with impulses beyond her command, broke her with year after year of the same.
It is understood that the world does not want to be understood. The world would not be this world if it did.
If we desire to live, we can only do so in the margins of that place.
I looked at my hands. I was holding onto the steering wheel so tightly, all my knuckles where shiny points of white, and my blinker was on, CLICK-click CLICK-click CLICK-click, so certain, so plain, so clear, and yet for all its mechanical conviction, blinking me in the wrong direction.
Maturity, one discovers, has everything to do with the acceptance of ‘not knowing’. Of course, not knowing hardly prevents the approaching chaos.
Please forgive me for thinking faith means certainty.
No better book ends than two walls.
An echo, while implying an enormity of a space, at the same time also defines it, limits it, and even temporarily inhabits it.
Lude would never feel how ‘empty hallways long past midnight’ could slice inside of you, though I’m not so sure he wasn’t sliced up just the same. Not seeing the rip doesn’t mean you atomatically get to keep clear of the Hey-I’m-Bleeding part.
The Vandal known as Myth always slaughters Reason if she falters.
Let the cold water run. It’s gotta warm up eventually. Right?
It’s a nice idea but it reeks of hope. False hope.
How then do you fly from that path?
For at least a week, I was hung over with no sense of what lay ahead, plenty of untraceable guilt and a mounting sense of despair.
What at all can we ever really possess?
In that peculiar contradiction that serves as connective tissue in so many relationships, it is possible to see that she loves Navidson almost as much as she has no room for him.
Though if he did say it no one there ever heard him.
This wasn’t necessary. It could have been avoided. We didn’t need to go through all this.
You alone must find the way. No one else can help you. Every way is different. And if you do lose yourself at least take solace in the absolute certainty that you will perish.
It’s not the healthiest way to proceed. She merely replaced one dependency for another without confronting what lay at the heart of both.
Find a sky so full of stars it will blind you again.