I waited for the idea to consolidate, for the grouping and composition of themes to settle themselves in my brain.
I’m continuing to work hard, not without periods of discouragement, but my strength comes back again.
My heart is forever in Giverny.
When I work I forget all the rest.
Nothing in the whole world is of interest to me but my painting and my flowers.
I haven’t yet managed to capture the colour of this landscape; there are moments when I’m appalled at the colours I’m having to use, I’m afraid what I’m doing is just dreadful and yet I really am understating it; the light is simply terrifying.
One day Boudin said to me, ‘Learn to draw well and appreciate the sea, the light, the blue sky.’ I took his advice.
These landscapes of water and reflection have become an obsession.
No one is an artist unless he carries his picture in his head before painting it, and is sure of his method and composition.
While adding the finishing touches to a painting might appear insignificant, it is much harder to do than one might suppose...
I can only draw what I see.
It took me time to understand my water lilies. I had planted them for the pleasure of it; I grew them without ever thinking of painting them.
I know well enough in advance that you’ll find my paintings perfect. I know that if they are exhibited they’ll be a great success, but I couldn’t be more indifferent to it since I know they are bad, I’m certain of it.
The creditors are proving impossible to deal with and short of a sudden appearance on the scene of wealthy art patrons, we are going to be turned out of this dear little house where I led a simple life and was able to work so well. I do not know what will become of us...
The richness I achieve comes from nature, the source of my inspiration.
I’m working hard with more determination than ever. My success at the Salon led to my selling several paintings and since your absence I have made 800 francs; I hope, when I have contracts with more dealers, it will be better still.
By the single example of this painter devoted to his art with such independence, my destiny as a painter opened out to me.
I’ve said it before and can only repeat that I owe everything to Boudin and I attribute my success to him. I came to be fascinated by his studies, the products of what I call instantaneity.
I can no longer work outside because of the intensity of the light.
The real subject of every painting is light.