My mind drifts back to the afternoon. Given what I understand of his preferences, I think he’s been easy on me. Would I do it again? I can’t even pretend to put up an argument against that. Of course I would, if he asked me – as long as he didn’t hurt me and if it’s the only way to be with him.
I don’t know whether to worship at your.
My sweet, sad Fifty Shades.
I don’t want to lose him. In spite of all his demands, his need to control, his scary vices, I have never felt as alive as I do now. It’s a thrill to be sitting here beside him. He’s so unpredictable, sexy, smart, and funny. But his moods... oh – and he wants to hurt me. He says he’ll think about my reservations, but it still scares me.
Grey doesn’t do nice. He does polite, maybe. And.
He’s not a hero; he’s a man with serious, deep emotional flaws, and he’s dragging me into the dark. Can I not guide him into the light?
You know how to show a girl.
Why do you always assume the worst?
Okay, bag out tea. Sugar?” For a moment, I’m stunned, thinking it’s an endearment, but fortunately my subconscious kicks in with pursed lips. No, stupid – do you take sugar?
I craved the escape that fiction provided.
Please.” He smiles that oh-so-smug private.
This is so... I want to think wrong, but somehow it’s not. It’s right for Christian. It’s what he wants – and after the last few days... after all he’s done, I have to man up and take whatever he decides he wants, whatever he thinks he needs.
It’s only just not painful.
Nothing I’ve done today, including running – twice – and a quick circuit in the gym, has dispelled the anxiety I’ve wrestled with all day. That power is in the hands of Anastasia Steele. I want her submission.
What I need her to understand is that this contract isn’t about the law, it’s about trust.
Whining and panting beneath.
Good night, Christian.
I love and I hate, and I love arguing with you. It’s very new. I need to know that we’re okay. It’s the only way I know how.
I love you, Christian Grey.
I feel like the sun has set and not risen for five days, Ana.