Crush’ is too weak a word to describe how I feel. It doesn’t do you justice, but maybe it works for me. I am the one who is crushed. I’m crushed that we have only ever regarded each other as enemies. I’m crushed when the day ends and I haven’t said anything to you that isn’t cloaked in five layers of sarcasm.
Maybe it’s the whole concept of a guilty pleasure,” Neil says gently. “Why should we feel guilty about something that brings us – pleasure?
How do you tell the person you’ve spent four years trying to destroy that you have a crush on them?
Today isn’t my epilogue with Neil – it’s a beginning. I’ll leave the happily-ever-afters in the books.
I’m in love with you. You are the most interesting person I know, and I’ve never been able to talk to anyone the way I can talk to you. I’ve devoted the past four years to leaving Seattle, but you... You are the best thing about this city. You are going to be the hardest to leave. I love you so much.
So often, I’m trapped between the pain of remembering and the fear of forgetting.
I could wake up on the same day a thousand times, and every single one would be different because of you. Every single one would be life-changing. Because of you.
What would a mediocre white man do?” she asks.
But sometimes I get this strange feeling, an ache not for something I miss, but for something I’ve never known” -Rowan.
But maybe that’s what we all are – halfway-broken people searching for things that will smooth our jagged edges.
Eventually, you deal with something for long enough that it becomes such an intrinsic part of you, and you can’t imagine yourself without it. You accept it, maybe because you think you deserve it but also because you’re scared that if you tried to change it, it wouldn’t work. It feels easier to live in that somber place because you don’t know who you are otherwise, and you’re worried about putting in all that effort without a guaranteed outcome.
Yeah. Like every moment you’re with them, your head is spinning and you cant catch your breath and you just know that this person is changing your life for the better. Someone who challenges you to be better.