Or maybe it was just that my life was a big, cruel joke, and there was no escape from the punch line.
I was all in, before I’d even consciously chosen, and I was committed to seeing this through. Because there was nothing more terrifying to me, more painful, than the idea of never seeing her again.
My life and his were twisted into a single strand. Cut one, and you cut both.
Sleep is one. Never-ending consciousness gets tedious. I think I’d enjoy temporary oblivion. It looks interesting.
I kept a binder in my hands, ready to use it as a shield if necessary. Jessica thought I was hilarious, but something in my expression kept her from lobbing a snowball at me herself.
It doesn’t feel that way to me. I think... Well, I think that maybe... you’re dying to be human.” There was almost a smile in her thought as she heard the silly double meaning to the phrase. “After all the planets and all the hosts you’ve left behind, you’ve finally found the place and the body you’d die for. I think you’ve found your home, Wanderer.
You don’t realize how incredibly breakable you are. I can never, never afford to lose any kind of control when I’m with you.
I guess my brain will never work right. At least I’m pretty.
My dad mumbled something unintelligible. “Woo!
He seemed confused. “Do you prefer Isabella?” “No, I like Bella,” I said. “But I think Charlie – I mean my dad – must call me Isabella behind my back – that’s what everyone here seems to know me as,” I tried to explain, feeling like an utter moron.
I’m alone.” I’d never been more alone in my entire life.
I’m always good when I’m with you.
I would have written it while he looked, but his clear, elegant script intimidated me. I didn’t want to spoil the page with my clumsy scrawl.
Don’t you ever again think that I don’t want you. I will always want you. I don’t deserve you, but I will always love you. Are we clear?
Mr. Banner called the class to order then, and I turned with relief to listen. I was in disbelief that I’d just explained my dreary life to this bizarre, beautiful boy who may or may not despise me. He’d seemed engrossed in our conversation, but now I could see, from the corner of my eye, that he was leaning away from me again, his hands gripping the edge of the table with unmistakable tension.
It’s possible to take bravery to the point where it becomes insanity.
Kaheleha was not the first spirit warrior, but we do not remember the stories that came before his. We do not remember who was the first to discover this power, or how it had been used before this crisis. Kaheleha was the first great Spirit Chief in our history. In this emergency, Kaheleha used the magic to defend our land.
I felt a thrill go through me as I said his name, and I hated it.
It was impossible, being in this house, not to realize that Charlie had never gotten over my mom. It made me uncomfortable.
I knew I must be patient with Edward. It wasn’t that he was unreasonable, it was just that he didn’t understand. He had no idea how very much I owed Jacob Black – my life many times over, and possibly my sanity, too.