No, no! I detest, despise, hate and discard this man forever. My delusion is gone, I know him now, and nothing can restore love, respect or confidence. He is my evil genius, and long ago when as a reckless girl I said I’d sell my soul to Satan for a year of freedom little I knew that I should be taken at my word in such fearful earnest. I’ve been happy, I’ve paid a high price for it, and now I have no desire but to expiate the impious wish by patience and submission.