I emerge from my three-week-long ECT treatment to discover that I am not only this Princess Leia creature but also several-sized dolls, various T-shirts and posters, some cleansing items, and a bunch of other merchandise. It turns out I was even a kind of pin-up – a fantasy that geeky teenage boys across the globe jerked off to me with some frequency. How’s that for a newborn-how-do-you-do damsel in very little cinematic distress?
She liked going to the gym, or rather, she liked having been to the gym, and the only way to have been was to go.
I decided to ride the lightning instead of extinguishing the light of life that had once shown out of my eyes.
Mania is, in effect, liquid confidence... when the tide comes in, it’s all good. But when the tide goes out, the mood that cannot and should not be named comes over you and into you. Because to name it would be an act of summoning.
It’s sort of like an invitation to the White House – only you meet a better class of people in the mental hospital.
When we started filming, I tried to keep myself well under the radar so that the powers that be wouldn’t notice that I hadn’t lost the weight they’d asked me to. I only weighed 110 pounds to begin with, but I carried about half of them in my face. I think they may have put those buns on me so they might function as bookends, keeping my face right where it was, between my ears and no bigger.
Why did all these men find it so easy to be in love with me then and so complex to be in love with me now?
Baby, the fact that you know that’s funny is going to save your whole life.
So Pat showed me a variety of exotic looks – from Russian princesses to Swedish maids. I looked at the images, slightly alarmed. There was no Lady Gaga to guide me.
Well, when the Enquirer becomes your standard for living, you’re in a lot of trouble! When.
Don’t offer me love I seek disinterest and denial Tenderness makes my skin crawl Understanding is vile When you offer me happiness You offer too much My ideal is a long-lasting longing For someone whom I cannot quite touch.
Maybe no man is an island, but some sure look like one.
Imagine having a mood system that functions essentially like weather – independently of whatever’s going on in your life.
I don’t just want you to like me, I want to be one of the most joy-inducing human beings that you’ve ever encountered.
I loved him and he allowed it.
I heard someone say once that many of us only seem able to find heaven by backing away from hell.
It’s as if I tripped and almost fell into my own grave. My only intent was to feel better – which is to say, not to feel at all.
Jabba the Hutt – the fashionista. Jabba the Hutt – the Coco Chanel of intergalactic style. Trendsetter, fashion maven, leader of women’s looks in his world, on his planet and the next.
Everyone else got to wear their regular outfits from the first movie. I had to wear my outfit that Jabba picked out for me. Jabba the Hutt – the fashionista. Jabba the Hutt – the Coco Chanel of intergalactic style. Trendsetter, fashion maven, leader of women’s looks in his world, on his planet and the next. In wax, I would forever be outfitted by outlaw Jabba. In wax and out, I would forever be stone-faced.
In the last few years I’ve become an accepted eccentric at best, and a fuckup at worst. I feel like I’ll let people down if I take away the behavior they’ve grown accustomed to disapproving of. They try to discipline me, I refuse to be disciplined. They object, I’m objectionable. We all know exactly what to do.