She wanted her son to be smart enough to get out of this nightmare, but not smart enough to know that he was actually inside one.
She even told me how to treat a girl on a date, which was very interesting. She said that with a girl like Mary Elizabeth, you shouldn’t tell her she looks pretty. You should tell her how nice her outfit is because her outfit is her choice whereas her face isn’t.
Hundreds of babies who were born to hundreds of parents. Every one of them the hero of their own life.
I love my mom so much. I don’t care if that’s corny to say. I think on my next birthday, I’m going to buy her a present. I think that should be the tradition. The kid gets gifts from everybody, and he buys one present for his mom since she was there, too.
What are the two types of people who can see things that aren’t there, Kate? And his quiet whisper of a punch line. Visionaries and psychopaths.
I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning. If this gets any worse, I might have to go back to the doctor. It’s getting that bad again.
After I said that, we all got quiet and sad. In the silence, I remembered this one time that I never told anybody about. The time we were walking. Just the three of us. And I was in the middle. I don’t remember where we were walking to or where we were walking from. I don’t even remember the season. I just remember walking between them and feeling for the first time that I belonged somewhere.
But you have to hear the end of the story – you have to know the wolf doesn’t win.
I know these will all be stories some day, and our pictures will become old photographs. But right now, these moments are not stories. This is happening. You are alive. And you stand up and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And you’re listening to that song, and that drive with the people who you love most in this world. And in this moment, I swear, we are infinite.
Kate Reese shivered when she realized the sad truth: Even monsters are adorable when they are little.
And when he was lying in the ground next to her, her photographs would be thrown in the trash because her face wouldn’t mean anything to anyone else. He was the last person alive who knew her and loved her.
I know that I brought this all on myself. I know that I deserve this. I’d do anything not to be this way. I’d do anything to make it up to everyone. And to not have to see a psychiatrist, who explains to me about being ‘passive aggressive’. And to not have to take the medicine he gives me, which is too expensive for my dad. And to not have to talk about bad memories with him. Or be nostalgic about bad things.
And we kept dancing. It was the only time all day that I really wanted the clock to stop. And just be there for a long time.
I also thought that if anybody saw me talking out loud when I was alone in the car, their looks might convince me that the something that’s wrong with me might be even worse than I thought.
I thought about Bill telling me I was special. And my sister saying she loved me. And my mom, too. And even my dad and brother when I was in the hospital. I thought about Patrick calling me his friend. And I thought about Sam telling me to do things. to really be there. And I just thought how great it was to have friends and a family.
Things like waking around the neighbourhood and looking at the houses and the lawns and the colourful trees and having that be enough.
The shadows were not terrifying. They were the proof that light exists. The fire and brimstone were all a mirage. The clouds nothing but steam inside a bathroom. All he needed to do was wipe away the mirror. He didn’t need a key. He was the key.
I just never gave God a name, if you know what I mean. I hope I haven’t let Him down regardless.
Charlie, we accept the love we think we deserve.” I just stood there, quiet. Bill patted my shoulder and gave me a new book to read. He told me everything was going to be okay.
Selbst Monster waren liebenswert, wenn sie klein waren.